Loyal to my soil.

I've been leavin this shit inda edit box but ima post it today for you muthabitches cus yall my folks but anywhoooo. Hahaha ...

Saturday: I was dyin at work ! Fuuuck. Wid two hoursa sleep and wid no energy, havin to do hella shit that I do at work, fucked everything up for me. I worked the full shift, yehnnoe the usual. And bitches was triena do that sickass shit and steal clothes from the store but you know my nigga LP officer got them, police came, and bitches got arrested. Hella funny cus they kept triena act like all they knew was spanish and my manager was talkin hella shit, cmon now, our shit is decent prices and you still can't afford that shit ? Fake ass wanna-be swag. A swag aint swag at all if yous a broke ass bitch. IMO. My managers are hella coo tho man, they stay crackin me up. But anyways, after the store closed, im inda main womans department, fixin everything up, sizin the clothes and then I fucked wid the table and started foldin, MAAAANNNN I was so tired doe. I started dozin off and shit. ALLLLLLL BAAADDDDD. I can't function wid 2 hours of sleep. Yehnnoe, im the kinda girl to get her usual 7-8 hours of sleep, the usual. Cus them sickass sleepy bags under the eyes do not be lookin cute. Hahaha. Afterwork, baby came thru to see me before he wenta vallejo. I was gona go cus charwifey was at nicks house and they had they own lil hype but I was not feelin it. Ya girl needed sleep ! So I stayed home and slept, ofcourse. Dreamin bout cashmoneys, the usual :D hahaha.

Sunday: this morning, I woke up hellllllllla rested. Smilin and shit like I just got some. Hahaha ! Nah, I think it was cus I had a goodass dream, but shit I aint mad. Took a sexy ass shower, got dressed, did the haair & smashed to work. Luckily I made it on time so I fucked wid the usual order at the barnes and noble starbucks. Got my discount (: you know, the usual.



It was hella windy today doe ! The eff. Me and allergies do NOT click. I be gettint that mad face >:[ hahah. Good thing I had my handy dandy allergy pill. So I was coo. Worked the usual 12-8pm shift, yehnnoe. Bitches be on someshit tho ! Tell me why this bitch was triena get $2hunnid ona giftcard and wid a certain limit we need managers approval and theeen she had an old navy card right and when you use it iss automatic we gota check the proper identification. She was triena act hella scandalous thoooo, lookin for her ID hopin we'd just say "ohh iss okaay." But nah, and then my manager had the card in her hand and noticed the magnetic strip [like, the brown line where it reads it] inda back started comin off, IT WAS A FUCKIN STICKER. I did not know you could do that !!!! Ofcourse it was a stolen credit card but on topa that, the shit was a fake account ! So you know my manager took care of that bitch and again had the cops come thru and took her in custody. But DZAAAMNNN ! Really ? Our damn economy is in recession and people pullin shit like that !? NO WONDER ! I was truly amazed tho. I almost felt bad for th lady even. Like, damn. Thank god I gota job to pay for my shit in the most legit way. I love my wamu card and bank of america card =) anyways, I fucked wid the 10wing combo at wingstop for my lunch break mmm, cajun wings wid honey mustard and fries. THE. SHIT.

After works I smashed home slappin mac dre. Yehnnoe, the usual. Spoke to charwifey wid updates, yehnnoe the usual. Luhh that girl tho, she always got some juicy details to tell me. Baby came through and we had a latenight dinner. Goodass steak tho. Then we watched quick moovie, cuuddlies cuddlies cuuddlies, yehnnoe. And then we talked, tellin me how he bought some cologne from somebody sellin quality generic cologne inda parkin lot at marshalls. Hahaha but iss a legit company, someshit. It smells good tho. And you KNOW how I feel bouta good smellin man, ahh. I go craaaazyeee. All weak inda knees and shit =) I think thas a turn-on to me, when a man smells so damn good you just wana lick him. OKAAY SO ANYWAAAYS !

Yesterday: Slept in, for once =) gahhh. Wake up convo wid baby and he wenta work. I got ready and went to my brothers house for my nephews photoshoot day.



Cuteass lil boyyyy. Later on inda day, spoke to trina bout how we wanted to go to the shooting range in rancho cordova, but I went home instead cus I wasn't feelin it for some reason. You know when you get those feelings when you don't feel like doin SHIT that day ? Thas how I felt, so I went home, took a 30 min hot bath and read some womens health magazine while I was in there. Hahahaha. Got out, stayed in my robe the whole day and painted my naails red, painted my toesies creamy tan [thas what iss called hahaha] and alla that goodshit ;) ended my night doin homework and readin this ridiculous english book. But iss coo cus it gets me my A for the semester since I gotsa 98.5% in the class :) fucks wid iiiiiit doe. Hahah.

TODAYYYYY: yalready know how my tuesdays go, yehnnoe the usual, im at sac city til 220. Had a lil chit chat wid charwifey this morning bout her stepmama. Dzaaaamn, I love my girl tho. Had shit hella crackin in careers class cus I got my careers assessment back. And got listed some pretty decent job interests. Life insurance agent ? Fucks wid the entrepreneurship =) marketing and advertising, ayyyyeee. ATTORNEY ? Whuuuus good. Hahaha, it said flight attendant and iuno about that cus iun wana fucks wid no terrorists. Hahaha.

But anywaaaays, after class, my classmates were triena go to some food place called stockton burger.





So we went there and the food was HAAAAAILLLAAA good tho. Off stockton blvd. Get there. Niggas was hella nice too. And they bouta be havin sushi in there too ?! The haail. Lion king roolls and everything ! IM THERE. Thas it for now tho cus im bouta cutt turf. DIPSET.

Cashmoneys.

Friday, friday, friday ... sigh. So my exam right ... *silence. It just wasn't crackin for me. I seriously hate that teacher wid a passion. After studyin for hella long, the test wasn't even what I expected. And she wasn't even clear on what concept she wanted us to use, therefore, I faailed my exam :( UGHHH. The second one I failed too. Thas when I knew tho, we wasn't gon click. I fucked wid the counselor appointment and dropped the class since I was already plannin on takin it again next semester. Stupid ass Math 100. Whatevs tho.

Drove home hella upset and almost ran a bitch over yesterday. ALLL BAD. Hahah. Iss coo tho. But anyways, I went home and took a nap to calm my ass down. Around 6 I started to get ready cus leanne and rickstopherton was comin through to the capitol city. Haha. Baby swooped me when he got off and chilled at his house til they showed up. Aint shit was goin down out here last night [hella weak] so we fucked wid the jackson rancheria.



We wasn't allowed to take pictures inside. But whatevs. It was a coo lil hype. Me and leanne was on our shit for hella long, triena come up wid roulette [or however you spell that shit] and slots hahahah and was on the complimentary drinks hah. While rick and baby was makin shit happen at the tables. Three/four hours later, us girls was not lucky thoooo, fucked up. But the men were ! They came up a good profit too.

WHY WHY WHY. When we was on our way home tho, we got blurped ! For some dumbshit too. Nigga was triena fuck wid us. At 530am ! Takin alla our ID's and shit. Doin too much. But he let us go and we all slept over at babys house. I felt hella bad cus he had work at 11 this morning. So we hadda wake up at 9. Allllll bad. We prolly only got like 2 hoursa sleep. But it was cooo.

After behbeh went to work, leanne, rick and I went to get some food cus we was haaila hungry doe. Went to the pho house and it 'pho'sho hit the spot. Hahaha.




Ricks moolah but he bastard didn't wana pay for us. Haha. Issall good tho. After that exam shit I wanted to drink lastnight tho maaan. Get it outta my system ! Iss coo tho, baby and I hadda talk and it had me calm down.

Coo lil friday I'd say. Today, I make cashmoneys sellin ya fav casual clothin -_- stupid old navy. Tahtah !

Blogmatic.

I really do blog too much. But who gives a fuck, this my shit ! I say what I say. Wheneva, whereva. And im watchin "Meet the browns" anyways, which btw is a funny ass, good, muthabitchin movie that I've watched literally 10+ times. So I gaaat tiiime.

Tell me why I just got off the phone wid char and there's never a dull moment. Weell, maybe when we sleepin cus you feel me, WE'RE FUCKIN SLEEPING. But damn, I never thot we'd be this damn close. Great minds think alike and char is my greatest main bitch doeee.

Ughhh, but can I just say, **don't you hate it when people get so caught up wid the hype and start feelin themselves too much they lose touch wid who they really are ? CUS I DO ! Bitches really don't get it. They can't define who themselves are nowadays, wtfuck is wrong wid that ? EVERYTHING. These girls that think bout when's the next time they gon get some dick besides when's the next time they gon TAKE A MUTHAFUCKIN SHOWER, would be caaaalled ? A silly ass sickass hoe. Damn, they can't check they shit one time ? Be real one time ? I think the top reason for why iss hard for me to get close to people cus I've suffered many friendships wid girls who've changed into somethin I didn't wana become. Girls who STAY worryin bout "what's that niggas name" or "ooo, that nigga is fine !" damn really ? Can we just talk bout politics one time ? Or talk about shoppin or yehnnoe why green tea is GREEN !? Fuck. I always had guyfriends but nothin more than that title. I never put myself into a vulnerable position like that. And once you get a reputation of a sickass HOE, it sticks witchu maaan. And that shit aint coo. They never been on the outside lookin in, they always into that one minded type shit.

Anyways ! Enough bout bitches. Im sicka that shit. I know which girls I could stick wid for the resta my life and which bitches that I shouldn't be fuckin wid ever again. ON THAT NOTE: I can't waaait to go ona vacay for spring break, iss really what im yearnin for. I stayed at the schoohouse today to finish my math homework online cus I wanted to practice for my stupid ass exam tomorrow, but I wasn't really feelin it. I managed to do as many questions I could to geta 85% score on as my chapter grade and left it at that. I coulda stayed to do more, but I wanted to go home. To go home to do what exactly ? Nothin in particular. Hahaha.

Man, I needa get out there and start actually talkin to people out here in sac to chill wid. I don't do shit out here besides work, go home. Go to schoo, go home. Chill wid family, go home. Or chill wid brian, spend the nizzight wid him and then go home. Pretty boring stuff ! Sac is sucha different ass world tho, at least thas how I feel. If I lived inda city, or back in the bay, whichever, it'd be all bad. But it sucks cus I wanted this in highschoo. To get faaaar away from everyone else. Iss coo tho, cus it'll all pay off inda long run. Okaay, okaay. My tiny ass fingas hurt. Ima try to download "why did I get married" onto my laptop. IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN THAT MOVIE, YOU FUCKIN SHIT UP ! Watch. that. movie <333333

STEEZY LYDIA PAEK THO.

the voice of a fuckin angel tho, iun care bout the dude cus he didnt sing shit in this video, but daaaamn, that song ! ADDICTED, ADDICTED, ADDICTED !

Bob Marley -

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there."

Weekly rituals.

Baby and I do so much together. Hence the fact that we don't really got anybody else to do things wid cus we're always focused on schoo and work rather than makin friends and such. Yehnnoe ? Shit, we got our friends back at home. We out here to focus on our shit. BUUT, a busy day that started so early inda morning began so beautifully =) I love wakin up to brian. He's so cute. Like a japanese cuddly bear that hugs you inda middle of the night or kisses me onda cheek inda morning =D im sucha lucky girl. I don't really express my feelings so deep, but in brians eyes, he always gives me that look, like I can just tell we're always gona be in love wid eachother cus we can't live without one another, crazy huh. I admit, we do got our problems here and there, but the look he gives ... thas when I know. Can't nothin feel better than what we got together. I gota deal wid his silly, goofy, fun, crazy ass for 87 years. [87 years is justa random number we came up wid statin how long we're gona be together. And we met eachother when we were 17, so when we're 104 years old, we die together but our love is forever.] Hahahahah, iuno what im talkin bout. But daamn, he's my shinin staaaar =) "honey YOU, aaawre maaah shinin star" hahaha, hella oldass song.



Damn, anyways ! We started our day by goina walmart to get his things and I was gona get these eyelashes, but nah ima just order some online. And theeen we went to ross to look if they had brians cologne but they didn't, I hella had to use the restroom, but when I walked out, I seen this cuteass leather jacket =) SWOOPED. Hahah, a good investment. And then fucked wid the arden mall to go check if they had this watch I wanted at f21 but they didn't :( baby wanted to switch colognes but he was uncertain on which to get. We woulda stayed there to keep shopping but I got hella hungry. We went to arigatos off howe ave [GO. THERE.], which by the waaay is the dopest sushi place wid some gooood ASSSS sushi. Nigga, im japanese, I know what good sushi tastes like. Hahah. And their rolls are HALF OFF !? Ohh man. I didn't know when to stop. Hahaha. Nah nah, im jk. I prolly stopped after like the third roll.



NOT TO FORGET;
Its hazelbaby's birthday today. And my bitches are out bowling and shit without me. Wifey told me I was to be replaced for the night !? HAAAIL NAH, FUCK THAT. Can't NO bitch replace me. She know, she know. I miss my girls tho. Iss fuckin genuine as heeell how our two hour long distance can't break our friendship, we solid as fuck.

HELLA OLD ASS MEMORIES.

ALLA THIS SHIT WAS IN 06, damn you can HELLA change in three years. Well ofcourse, cus change is always good. But i'm lovin how life is now. I gota goodass job, im doin good in schoo and i'm wid the man of my dreams. But ayyeee, iss okaay to go down memory lane every once in a while, you dont know who you are unless you know what you've been through or is it ... you dont know where you're goin unless you know where you're from. WHATEVER. you get my vibe =) ahahahaha.

This is what i used to fucks wid ona daily. But NOW, ima good girl =)



Bonfires at ocean beach, everyone from fairfield to vallejo to alameda to the city.




EWWWWWW & tell me why i found this ...




ALRIGHT, so lemme first NOTE that this nigga is my EXBOYFRIEND. I just found it hella funny that alla sudden i found this shit. Ughhhh, dont worry baby if you eveer read this you know that i highly dislike this nigga cus he talked too much shit and i hadda chalk his ass to the game. BUT WHATEVS ! Cus i'm happily in love wid ...


BRIAN MUTHAFUCKIN BABYDADDY SMITH !

HOOKED.

"But baby, what if i dont wana wait !?" hahahahahaha. my girls crack me up. im easily enticed by songs like these ! maaaan. sing for brian on his 19th birthday !? AHHHH ! NOOOO ! Hahahah, shit i woulda sang to him on that fools 18th birthday infronta alla his family and friends, but ehhhhh. he fucked it up for himself wid that lil summer stunt he pulled wid his lil "bops" hahahaha, i love baby tho. he deserves good things and good things i will give. this year, i shall give that boy what he wants AND more. alla my girls rub shit in my face how he spoiled me wid the GOODS. tiffany's necklace, movado watch, a digital picture frame and a camera !? hahahaha. damn, what did i give him ? home-made love cards and teddy bears and shit -_- hahahaha. nah i know theres more i spoiled that boy wid i just cant think of em right now, but damn why he always gota top me !!!!!! cus im the princess in this relationship and baby gives mama what mama wants. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

"Boy I should slap you silly"

Ughh, iss real funny how niggas don't got no respect fa girls OR themselves. Dude really tried gettin back in for hella long when he was gettin kicked out. Wouldn't you feel embarassed ?! Hahaha, it wasn't like we was gon be like, "ahhh man iss coo, come back in" hahaha. The fuck. I prolly looked the craziest wid the shit I pulled that night. Bouta pull outta shank ona nigga for such disrespect. Why don't some people listen nowadays !? Haha, nah alla that shit was provoked and whas done is done. I had a good time still tho ! =) all for hazel too. Ohh and me and wifey get called drama girls ? HAH ! Nah, we just stay handlin ours ona daaaily. Iss sad some bitches can't do that for themselves. ANYWAYS ! Before goina the city, I was drivin right, goina my brothers house right, and then I seen this shit ...



Boss parking !? Yalready know. Hahaha. I really stopped traffic to take a picture off my kick.

Man tho, everytime I eat, I gota fucks wid the Louisiana hot sauce, this shit is fuckin tasty. Iss good wid everything too !



My ultrabitch's courtdate was today. Hopefully everything is coo and they just set my nigga free.

Damn, people be askin me why I don't fucks wid livin inda bay. But I mean, I have a life out here, havin work and schoo. I know out there I can't concentrate on my shit like I do out here. But im out there like swimwear whenever I needa break from this shit. Growin up where im from, I fucked up one too many times, procrastinated on hella shit, always kickin it wid my folks or doin some unimportant shit. Thinkin "the hype" was always gona get me somewhere until I seen and realized where that road leads. And I aint goin down that road. I aint got alla time inda world esp in my family's situation, so therefore thas why I like makin shit happen on my own =)

Anyways, this weekend made me realize how happy I am to have a man that accepts me for who I am and what im bout. Brian knows when im mad, I handle my shit one way or another. And tho I may overreact, iss better to do somethin then not do anything at all. And I can tell that he's proud to have an individual such as myself =) When we coooo, I can be the downest bitch you'll eveer meet whether iss a problem wid some nigga or some faulty ass bitch. Thas just how I am. Im the nicest sweetest girl but then I fadamnsure know howta stand my grounds correct. Momma didn't raise no fool. Hahah, I got the mentality of a sweetiepie but a heart of a fighter. All ina days work I'd say =) if you want somethin so bad, you fight for it. And baby, trust me, im ina battle. And im in it to win.

Trina Phillips.

Im takina break outta this fuckin reading book. Omgggg, trina asks me to blog alla time just so she can read my shit but she can't answer phone calls. Who does that ?! Stupid bitch. Hahah, issall love. Claw just reminded me today of how im missin my fuckin f21 jacket and a couple of my tees from my closet. AND my ny&c flats. Where the hell is all my shit goin !? I think I lost it in davis. Or maybe they're at brians house .... -_- hmmm. Iuno. I shall shop in LA to get rid of my terrible loss :( hahah. And on topa that, im cravin crepes. Party inda city tomorrow ? =)