Rollercoaster.

man. it sucks that i get emotional and sensitive WHEN I'M BOUT TO START MY PERIOD. hahahahaha. poor brian. cus he's the one that has to hear my attitude and deal wid my bitchy-ness. its okaay tho. baby got patience wid me and knows howta work around the feminine problems us girls have. hahahaha =) no matter what bitch fit i have, he alwaaays got me. hahaha. but ANYWAYS. i really dont wana get into personal details lately. but all put together, i'll just say that i've had a couple rough days lately. but i'm okaay now.

this morning, baby came through and i was lightweight trippin cus i woke up to a loud knocking sound at my front door, but it was just him. hahahaha. it took me hella long to wake up, i didnt even get up til like 1pm-ish. hahaha. but we fucked wid the mini trip to fairfield inda rain [it was really rainin hella randomly, and just so happened that it WOULD rain when this whole swine flu shit is goin on] to visit his grandma. and then we wenta vallejo to visit his boys at renatos house and i watched the boys play their videogames. boys will be boys =) haha. nah its coo tho. it keeps em outta trouble i suppose. mmm, and then we wenta the grand opening at yosushi and it took forever to get the food. but we ended up gettin it to-go and went to his momma house and for some reason his mom and i were talkin for hellllaaaaa long about the past and school and work and stuff. maaaan tho, its lightweight late and i gota go to sleep. fucks wid the pictures tho.


WEDNESDAY:

had these inda vendin machines at work. hahaha wtshit.

THURSDAY:

why am i the only one that always be takin notes in class.


naaaails <3


stocked up on hand sanitizer thoooo.
protect yourself from the swine flu !


charwifey and hazelbaby came through to sac.
bitchass corey, treat her right.





@ arden.


TODAY:


@ my house. baby had to use to potty.
but i put the toilet paper at an outta reach spot, HELLA FUNNY.


I know i'm an aquarius, but i no like raaain. >:[


his grandma cooked fish and chips. everytime i see his grandma, she always got this bigass smile on her face as soon as she sees me. i love his grandma, she is the sweetest eveeeer and got a big heart that always has me think of how much respect i got for her.


Dope tv cus the lighting behind it adjusts to the colors of the tv.
@babys friends house.


baby finished this in like 7 min.
CAN YOU DO THAT ! ... i cant -_-



Yosushi in Vallejo, CA. Get there.

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Aye yo check this though: From gabe hahah. cus I read your bulliten.

Via Tumblr:

90 people get the swine flu and everybody wants to wear a mask. A million people have AIDS and no one wants to wear a condom.

Discuss. Real talk.

as my HCD teacher would say, dive deep, think, and reflect. hahahaha. that is some true ass shit though. i laughed when i read this. cus this is so true ! puahahahah. i gota go tho, update more later. maybe =)

:(

stressed. emo. upset. annoying. betrayed. neglected.

Prayin ...

charwifey says it seems like i blog everyday, so i'm bloggin right now. at 1230am, for HER. hahahah ;) but anyways ! read her shit, charbeezy.blogspot.com -- Wifey, iss no question, you already know its automatic for me to be there for you when you need me gruhhh ! you know how i somehow got the wisdom that i have to make sure i tell my girls exactly what they need to know [not WANT TO KNOW] for the sake of the better. hahahaha. hella corny. but shit, yalready know mamas. fuck what anybody says, fuck how anyone feels, YOU DO YOU. and dont ever let anyone make you feel less than what you are cus that's their way of triena make themselves sound ona higher level, but pshhh i mean ... WE STAY UPGRADIN ON THESE MUTHAFUCKAS. how could they be ona higher level when they got our names droolin out they mouths. even at our lowest point in life, we still top notch girl ! my ride or die girl maaan. my patna in crime, foreaaals. bitch we regulate niggas together on a constant note. hahahaha. esp at hazels function. BUT ! Lets not get into that. hahaha.
I LOVE MY WIFEY CHARLENE BANZON, OFFTOP !
without doubt, without question.

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please lord, please find a cure for this swine flu man ! tell me why i just learned about it today ! -- thanks to bestfriend-- readin about it on cnn.com freaked me out. hella made me wana cash out on hand sanitizer plus the wipes AND the face masks. i'm not even sick, but i still wana get tested. it is really no joke. and it scares me to think of how easily its been spreading. NOT COOOOO. i got so freaked out, if you got textes or IMs from me about it, iss cus i care man ! i dont wana see anyone i know havta go through that kinda problem. its hella devastating. i'm prayin that they find a way to cure it tho. cus people are freaked out about it and so am i. hmmm, on a better note tho ! gueess who's gettin this pretty baby tomorrow ...ahhhhhhhhhh ! meeeeeeeee ! hahahaha. well oookaay, thas some picture i got off google, but myy nigga. its the exact dup of what mines looks like. no more drivin mommys car ? nomore waiting for moms to come home to gets places ? ahhhh shit. MINE. finally man. final. ly.

kuya gave me that call that i've been waiting for alllll week that i'm gettin the cahh tomorrow. though i got work tomorrow he's gona be givin it to me after, i suppose. he's paying for the car for me (: BUT ! i'm payin him back in payments. damn man, I LOVE MY BROTHER ! on everything man. he knows how hard i try and how much effort i put into triena get started on my own two size 5 ina half feet. but god knows i've been patient for this for so long now. and i'm guessin he's tellin me i'm ready and givin me a blessin. bill$. bill$. bill$. dzamn man, i have no otha choice now =/ but, im hoping it'll all pay off in the long run. work hard, play harder. right ?

but why am i feelin like ima be workin so damn hard, i prolly wont have any energy to plaay. dedication man. i live it, speak it, breath, eat, sleep -- DEDICATION.

Brian, I think God made you...

exactly for me. so yesterday, after i got off work, i went home and realized how my mom hasnt been to work in three weeks. and so i'm thinkin to myself what the fuck is goin on !? i swear, shes becomin lazy and gettin so caught up with her "friends" and alla these other OLD elders triena party like us YOUNG ones. and i know, its gona come down to me havina pay bills, AGAIN. i'm so sicka this shit maan. alla these financial problems always come from my mom. and its like my kuya tells me alla time to stop relying on my mom but its like, she's not givin me any place to start doin shit on my own. i'm been financially doin things on my own ever since I was 16, i repeat, SIXTEEN years old. and supporting my mom and payin HER bills, is gettin real old. and i had a meltdown last night :( cus its like, i'm sick and tired of my mom doin shit like this. its like, she gave up bein a REAL mom ever since her and my dad got divorced, which was when I was only 2 years old. And it seems like my dad stopped bein a REAL dad ever since he got remarried to that bloodsucking bitch that he's STILL with now. it makes me upset to think of how my dad did me and my brothers but i blame it all on the bitch he got married to. I have ZERO respect for her due to the fact that she manipulated my dads mind to no longer care about his kids. when in the beginning, we were his EVERYTHING. he pushed alla his kids away based on what his "new wife" thought cus all that mattered to her was HER daughter. UGHHHHHHHHH. anyways. its okaay tho, cus alla the love, support, guidance and everything that i've ever needed came into life form through brian.

during my meltdown last night, he came through cus he always does when he comes back from vallejo and so he knew about how i was stressin over my mom and alla that other shit. but as he was leaving, i heeeella broke down. which leaded to him packin MY things and taking me to his house cus he knew how i didnt wana be home alone with so much on my mind cus I knew bein alone was just gona drive me craaazy. when it comes to me thinkin of how broken my family is- it breaks me to pieces cus it feels like my brother and i are the only ones that care. i hate that we've ended up this way but right now, MY MOM IS JUST MAKIN SHIT WORSE. and last night it really made me realize how i need to stop kidding around and get back to focus. i'm 19 years old. this is ridiculous. my mom constantly stresses me out with the dumb things she does and how ruthless she feels about life. mothers are supposed to be role models, heros, the guidance. but my mom is the total opposite. and so that leaves me ... with nothing.

so people ask why i work so damn hard ? thats my reason. cus at the enda the day, i feel satisfied knowin i'm bustin my ass at work, school and in my relationship wid brian to make sure i'm nothing like my parents.

I HATE ...

STRESSING ! :(

Gingersnaps.

Im really not a fan of hot weather. Im the best in complainin when it comes to heat. I hate the feeling. Everything about it. Hahaha. Those couple days of heat was even worse for me cus I got hella sick wid the stomach flu. Which was fucked up cus at work they still wanted me to come in. I fucked wid the fittin room shift since the fittin room is near the bathrooms. Just in case yehnnoe. Hahah. I felt the worst pain tho, the stomach flu is NOT the bidniz. Or maybe I was just unfortunate to have the symptoms I had cus it got so bad to where I had to go to the hospital. But im goood now. Thank god.


Thursday night I went to red robin in Rancho cordova wid baby and his coworkers for his coworkers birthday. It was cooooo. I wasn't really that hungry so I fucked wid the caesar salad and clam chowdaaaa =) damn im hella cravin clam chowder in sf right nowwww. Hmph. But anyways...



Maaan, yesterday when I went to work, I seen pico's bitchass nametag on my locker and was like, "what the fuck is this !?" hahaha. Wthhh, who does this nigga think he is ?! Hahah, but maaayn, im startin to haate goina work. But then iss gon suck cus when my brother gives me that car ima havta work more cus Im gon have ANOTHER bill to worry about. Iss good tho. I guess.


Last night on our way to leannes, baby and I were triena see how fast his car could go, he went up to like 115 and then slowed down but I couldn't catch the picture. Haha, last night was coo tho. Went to the telly in fairfield but got kicked out cus there were hella heads up in that bitch. So we fucked wid walmart and latenight jackindabox (: we met everyone up at leannes but didn't stay long. Fuckin kaz got the jaguar tho ? A bitch car !? Hahahah. Nah that shit was dumbass legit tho. hellllaaaa nice.

After we went to baby's house.

Poor baby said I kept elbowing him while we were sleeping. But shit I can't help it if its his small ass bed ! Haha. I slept good tho (: hahah. We had to wake up early to meet up moms in fairfield cus I got work at 1130. So we on our waay. Damn tho, its the enda april already !? I coulda sworn it was just april fools. Issall good cus that means that pretty soon, summers gona be heeeere (: ayyyye.

Without cover.

i'm not even gon go into all the specifics of what i've been doin lately, cus honestly, i dont remember nothin else BUT bein sick, goin to the hospital and bein wid baby and my nephew.

to my loyal blogreaders, my bad for not bein able to update. i was hella sick. not just hella sick, but HELLLLAAAAAAA SICK. i think thas the worst i've ever been sick in my life. and on top of that, i felt the worst pain eveeeer. but yehnnoe, baby still took care of mama =) mmm ! i love my man. anyways, i hate the damn hospitals tho. stupid bitches had me wait the first time. but inda end, it came down to the stomach flu and dehydration. i guess they triena tell me i dont drink enough italian sodas and jamba juice ? awwwww shit. they bouta max out my damn card then cus i already swipe my shit so damn much. issall good tho. i've been spendin hella time wid my nephew tho. i swear i love that spoiled brat. you wana talk about spoiled ? MY NEPHEW IS FUCKIN SPOILED. so spoiled i wana strangle him sometimes but i dont cus i love him so damn much. hahahahah.

anyways, tonight baby invited me to his coworker's dinner thingy at chevys ? red lobster ? i forgot. one of those. so i guess i'll be attendin dinner wid a whole bunch of people that i dont even know -_- but i cant wait til the weeekend ! for the first time i'm not closing at work =) i gets off earlieeer than usual. so you know what that means ! hahahaha. ohh and sunsplash on wednesday ? wid my girlies ? ahh shiet. and i cashed out on more than a few summer dress. BRING THE HEAT BABY, cus i CAN be inda kitchen and in yo griiill biaaaaatch ! =) i'm too lazy to think of some other stupid ass shit to tell you guys so I guess you'll have to wait til the next post cus hopefully it'll be more interesting than this one. hahahah. toodles !

PS- I miss you too wifey.

My definition of family.

Its hard to define that when it comes to my family. I never had that feeling of actually havin a family. I mean, I have a dad and a mom and three brothers. But my parents can't ever live up to their title. I never had moral, financial, family type support from my parents. I swear they gave up on bein "parents" after they got divorced. I've been havin to do everything on my own ever since I was 14 years old. Learned my own morals the hard way. Went to church on my own insteada havin the kinda parents that drag you to church yehnnoe. It sucks. But I thank god for every single day given to me, its like another chance each day yehnnoe. But somehow I get thru it. I swear people my age got it made for them, but they take life for granted. But me ? I put in full shifts at work just to get by. But iss okaay, I know after college, ima live good. With some damn decency at least.

BUT, I swear I thank god everyday for Brian Scott Smith. Its like god designed him, just for me. Cus when I have nothin else to turn too, he's right there, givin me 100% support, 100% love and 100% growth. We have our times. But its cus we both have the kinda patience and communication to get through. When im sick to my stomach [like today] baby brings the best remedy to make me better. And thas love.

The life of a beautiful complication ... and it just continues.

"WHY DO BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE" Tyler Perry's-Not easily broken.

If i had one wish...

We would be bestfriends ? Nahhht, actually it'd be for me to have one more fuckin week of spring break. But maaaan, check this. After gettin the tires fixed we realized the annoying ass sound isn't from the wheels, its NOT my breaks, its my alignment. What. the. flyyyyyin. shit. Aint that bouta bitch tho. Cashed out for nothin. Next time my mommy pays. AND THEN I found out I can't even file my damn taxes cus my mom claimed me. And if she didn't I'd prolly get like $600 back. Damn it. Can I be unclaimed for once !? Hah. Shiiiit. How inconvenient for my extraordinary life. Thas some fucked up ass shit.

Schooo is so gay maan. And I feel like im slackin although I already got my A's in alla my classes. Doooin too much. I need do some damn time management. *sighhhhhh. Anywaaays, monday my brother had a family party. Like always, cus I guess HIS brother-in-law caught a big ass fish. So them bein vietnamese, they celebrated ahaha. Nah iunoo, it was crackin tho. We went to the store and cashed out on food for my brother's half of his family and seen this


It was damnear as tall as me ! And I'm 5 feet tall !





I love vietnamese food. Baby came through too and plaayed SFIV, ofcourse, wid my brother and them.

Tuesday, afterschoo I fucked wid the crepes escape and got the strawberry nutella (; MMMMMmmmmMm. And then I went home and did hella homework cus my life sucks and I gota do shit like that. Hahahah, im kidding.




wednesday: I had work inda morning. It took me hella long to realize it was payday =) but youuu know I wasn't mad. Went to the mall wid brian and then swooped my nephew to spend some time wid him :) took babyboy to the duckpond and he hella enjoyed it. and then we went to the supeerwalmart in natomas and literally went through every damn isle. hahahaha. spoiled my nephew wid a new fit. plain hoodies, thug shorts and long tees. hahahahah. im sucha good auntie to him. tho i might be an auntie to another junior, hahahah. dzaaamn my bruh really aint playin. he loves bein a dad. hahah. brian was geettin hella into it too. "i cant drive to fast, we gota baby on board" hahaha. i think brian would be one of those scared fathers and would treat our kid like a fragile box. hahahahaha. he'll get used to it when the time is right. again, NOT TIL THE TIME IS RIGHT. that night i didnt even go to sleep til like 4am :( cus i had to wait for my brother to swoop my nephew. so you already know i was inda worst mood at schoo.

after schoo yesterday, i went back to my brothers house and swooped my nephew again. and i've been wid him ever since. hahah. i feel like im playin house. hahah, except daddytype is always at schoo or work [brian]

ughhh i hate arguin about females to him. i try so damn hard to not say shit but when i keep shit in, it blows up sooner or later. i DO NOT wana get into that cus i'll prolly end up upset again. but fact of the lifetime: I HATE BITCHES, BUT I LOVE MINE. til next time :)


Song of the week: Lets play house- RayJ.

Sunshine.

I musta had the longest weekend in my whole entire life. But shit yalready know I was not trippin cus ya girl stay on her priority hype doin everythang to keep her income legit. Thursday, me and my citythangs, baby and my davis babies went to empire for the club. And lemmee just say, it was a pretty coo hype. Considering the fact that I could tell my man had a good ass time, normally he just looks like he's there cus of me, but he was a dancin and lookin all cute. MY BAAAD. Haha. Tho it was fuckin raainin and shit. Ughhh. Haha


Cluuuuub circus @ Empire in Sac, CA.

After the club, baby took me home cus we lost the girls and so I redid my haair and shit til the girls came to swoop me again. The girls and I went to the Embassy Suites and met up at they lil tellys they had.


Me and the girls got hungry as fuck and then drove to Natomas to cop on the latenight jack inda crack. Tell me why these niggas tried knockin on our window askin us to hurry up, the fuck. I shoulda slapped that boy stupid cus he musta been on somethin. But anywaaaays, the girls slept at my house and woke up to brians goodmorning call and laughin bout stories of the night before. Haha.



We woke up hungry again so we got dressed and went to Arden to have a late lunch inda food court. Went shoppin a lil bit @ f21 and Mac for my lippies. And then hazel got her haair did. So I waited wid her while Char and Chey went to go galavant around the mall. Ahaha.





Me and Char @ F21 @ Arden.



After three hours of waitin for this bitch to get her cuteass peek-a-boo hair color, me and the girls got hungry AGAIN and fucked wid the wingstop and got the 10wing combo.



The girls dropped me off and then got swooped again from baby and met up wid leanne, edrick, joel and rick @ jackson. Joey and his boys were there too which was good cus brian finally got to see his boys. Leanne was the only one that came up on cashmoneys which was good cus she had me to call out for her on what to do and which thangs to choose. Hahaha, around 2ish we left after eating on some good ass pho.


@ Jackson.

Saturday, I didn't even wake up til like 4ish and it felt daaaamn good to finally be able to sleep in. I be over exhausted doin alla this shit man. I really can't function wid 4 hours of sleep. I took a hotass shower for a good 30 min, mmmm ! Haha. After baby got off work, he came thru and swooped me again and I was out again.

We took the drive to Hiddenbrooke and went to Tracy's birthday pahhhty. Which was lightweight crackin cus I took a good three shots of Vodka along wid some mixer and some lemon smothered in brown sugar. Hahahaha. The haaaiiil. Nah it was legit tho. Chilled wid brians fellow pboy and alla this friends which was cooo.

The party thaang ended around 1am hah, and so we headed over to nickstophers house. While the boys talked about jackson and SFIV while smokin I hopped on the speed card game and it was done ! Ahaha. Mmm, around 4ish inda morning I went to jbabys house. Hahah.



I miss her old house tho. Hmph ! Woke up around 11ish wid like 5 hours of sleep ! Hmph. Went to church for eaaster wid her family and then to eat pho and then to starbucks and got my italian soda =) her moms always be hookin it up wid the keys to the Altima and so we went to Country creamery where I fucked wid the Maui Serbert =) then to Tapioca Express and got the Monster Icy. Jeeeeez. Hahaha, I can't help it if I love food tho or drinks at that ! <3333










Baby came to swoop his fav. girl and then headed to Fairfield to spend time wid his moms and grandma. Everytime I see his grandma she always has this big smile on her face. I love heer ! His moms came and we went to foodmax and then to Mikos for some sushi and I fucked wid the Lion king roll. After that, me and baby washed his car together, we sooo cute =) teheh. Around 8ish we headed back to sacramento where my spring break was declared to officially be over :( back to school. back to my money. back to the busylife.





ANYWAAAAYS, im so exhausted and got hella shit to do today, again. I'll update more later and post up more pictures. The true life of Khristine Gee and the story never ends.