To sum it all up.

I went to work on Monday when I took this picture and isnt it cute how Josephine always leaves me love notes on my locker. Hahaha, feels like highschoo. But i'm .. not ... in highschool. Hahahaha, she loves me so much and just cant fight the feeling !!!!

Free comic books at Old navy when you buy a Marvel tee. We gota constantly wear these things on our lanyards now. Shit be irritatin me cus when i'm triena take a security tags off at the registers, the magnetic thing always pulls these damn buttons from my lanyard.

Who do you know that has a jump house IN THEIR house ? MY FUCKIN BROTHER. Hahahah, on tuesday josephine and I went to my kuyas house cus my mommy cooked me food and wanted me to come over. And we were gona jump in it, but the air thingy that blows it up was too loud and my nephew was sleeping. WAAHHH.

Ordered the Mcgangbang. And then tried to go to the gym after. BUT WE FAILED. Its all G. The Mcgangbang is fuckin bomb. Who ever was too hungry and coulnt order the Mcchicken and the Double Cheeseburger separately, you is one smartass nigga ! Sad thing is, its hella fattening !

Instead we went to Aj's house and fixed up Beau's room as a surprise. Fixed it up, re-arranged everything and made it feel like home for him since he's gona be movin to sac, TO BE WID US ! An additional to our SACfamily. Isnt that fuckin swell. So, when he walks into his room, he's gona find me and josephine's welcome note. WE IS CUTE.

SACfamily. School, work and all we have is eachother.

Wednesday, after work. Jo was hungry so we took our fatasses to BJs. We hesitated at first cus we got off work at 10 and they were gona close at 11pm. We went in at 10:50 and good thing they still sat us down, I woulda been pissed ! But it was all G.

Thursday. The best day off work.

1. Went to Vallejo.
   
2. Seen Charwifey & seen bestfriend Danteezy at his work.
   
3. Met up wid bestfriend Dale Tu.
   
4. Met up wid OG khea.
   
5. Went to happy hour at Chevys and got some bomb ass chicken wings.
   
6. Visited Jeraboo.
   
7. Bestfriend did a quick photoshoot for me and josephine.
   
8. Visited Bestfriend Juice. And did a little collab wid her little brother who's hella bomb at playin the acoustic btw !
   
9. Went to go chill wid my fav. Vallejo boys
   

Didnt even get home til like 330am. And baby was still awake waiting for me. Awwwww, my baaabydaddy is so fuckin cute. I love my man on everything I gots ! Came home and did me nails. Tried something different. And I ended up gettin hella compliments at work. I swear people analyze hella shit about me at work. I cant change on thing without them noticing. Goodness ! GIVE ME A BREAK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today I woke up at 1pm. Got dressed for work and started at 3-10pm. I came home early for once besides goin to chill wid my Josiebaby and AJ, hoping that we'd finally spend time together for once insteada me comin home late, gettin ready for bed and then goin to sleep. BUT ! This fool is playin streetfighter -_- NOW ! I'm gona go wrestle his ass in bed cus he's gona stop playin to cuddle wid me, watch. Hahah, goodnight !

If you're strong, don't be weak towards love.

The pain about honesty.

To be completely honest, guys DO NOT wana be wid an over-dramatic woman. Someone who's hella clingy, vulnerable, too "willing" or too "available" to what they want or what they need from you. Some ask why he doesn't like you anymore, right girls ? Its cus the way your present yourself. Overloving. Too caring. Blowin up his phone askin the same questions every 5 minutes. Not trusting. The pain you show makes them feel like, in order to get you back they havta stoop down and show emotion. See, the thing is ... as much as they try for us women, men do NOT like showin emotion. It makes them feel less like a man when they havta show any kinda affection to a girl that's "on their nuts" as they call it because they feel love is over-rated and they have this mindstate that always reminds them of how young they are and how much they got in fronta them inda future. Bein young, if its easy for them to get back to you whenever its convenient for them, they won't want it. They'll toss it back and look for something they can work for. Or in other words, a love to work for. Not a love thas given to them.

Truuuust me, I GREW UP WID THREE BROTHERS. I think thas why I've grown my emotional maturity while I was still young cus I've seen my kuyas go through tons and tons of "girl/friend" drama and I've seen how they act. I grew up bein close to my brothers. And the thing is, girls never like the truth. As much as they make it seem like they 'need' the truth, we as women like to sugarcoat shit to at least just get through the day. They find out the unbelievable, harsh truth but yet they still pass through their comfort zone to impress. Impress why ? To have the love they once had back into their life. Put a fake smile but inda end they're eyes show how depressed or desperate they are to the opposite sex.

Its THAT readable.

Men strive away from women like that cus they have an ego so huge, they'd rather be happy wid someone else rather than be sad and downgrade themselves to make YOU happy. Thas why they always say, "Noone can make you happy other than yourself." Which is how it should be. You have no idea how true that line is. Never rely on anyone but yourself to put that smile on your face. Go back and remind yourself of the independent, outgoing woman that you were when you two first met. Get back to that and give someone else a chance. But only when you feel the time is right. Not a man who's gota girl on the sideline. Not a man who's gona dip in and outta the picture cus of his "double-standard" life. If you ever come across a man that leaves a girl to be with you, bestbelieve he'll do the same damn thing to you. He'll either be thinkin to leave you alla time or he'll end up doin what he can without you knowing. MEN BE FUCKIN SLICK ! But us as women, just gota be smart about alla that. But when we know what our main focus is and depend on that only, men lure into that shit. Men love a girl that got shit doin for her on a daily. Got plans and goals everyday and still manage to find sometime to spend time with their man. Be that girl.

Focus hard, but love harder.
Be the woman that dont need a man, but know you can get it. Legit.

But in the end, YOUR TOP PRIORITY WOULD BE: Make yourself happy. Don't depend on someone else to fulfill how you feel to make you're day. We as individual, INDEPENDENT women shouldn't rely on anyone else to make us happy regardless of how much LOVE was involved. By growin up and realizin that, at least you can say you loved, you tried, you gave it your all and you've conquered. We struggle, but its annoying to all men when its all over-exaggerated. Once again, be strong.

You've got a life ahead of you.
You've got to close that door to get to another.

Since he couldn't make you happy, just remember there's gona be that one ina million that'll do far and beyond to make you happy. Patience is a virtue. It really is. And I promise you, things are gona start turnin around and it'll all be better soon.
______________________

My niece- "Auntie, does it hurt when a guy breaks your heart ?"
Me- "Not really, but if it happens, just make sure you have a
band-aid handy to heal it and make it all better"

My niece- * Goes to the kitchen to look for a band-aid...*

And she's only 6 years old.
Goodness babygirl, dont grow up too fast on me.

Yummy in my Tummy.

I'M GOIN ON A BAKERY EXTRAVAGANZAAAAA <3

At some point in my life --And I have a feeling that its gona be sometime very soon-- I'm gona recreate alla these. For someone or some event. I wana go to another charity event. They're fun.

Lately, I've been thinkin about different careers I could try. Everyday at work, someone always compliments me on my hair, askin me who cuts it and whats their number or where the salon is, and I always tell them the same answer. "The salon is in my bathroom and I cut my own hair" with a big smile on my face. And when I tell em that, they ask for my name and tell me they'll be lookin for my salon next year, or ask for my phone number-- or somethin of the sort. AWKWARD !

So by supportive decision, I could begin a career doin either of these followin things:

1. I'm goin to open a hair/nail salon
2. Open up a bakery.
   
3. I'm going to be a Child Development Research Analyst.
   
4. A therapist.
   
5. A counselor.
   
6. An insurance Agent.
   
7. A fashion show host.
   

OR SOMETHING BEYOND IRONIC THAT I'M "FASCINATING" AT. Hahahah, my coworkers always tell me how I should be certain kinda things and start a career in different types of areas that I never ever thought of, but when I really think about. I could do alla those things if i really really wanted. But outta all things, the number one thing I want to do, is be a Relationship/Marriage counselor. I will. So when alla you crazy psychotic muthafuckas cant function your own damn relationship problems, you'll have to report to me and let me help you out. Shiiiiiiit, I've helped my cousin, who was in one crazy ass marriage. And now they're back to bein completely and kindheartedly in love with eachother, as if they were in highschool again. Its craaazy to see the divorce rate and how much its increased in the past few years. Cant we get back to morals and respected one another for once !? COMPROMISE !? Shit. I swear some people can be greedy and selfish to the fuckin max. But its okaay

... god will write your love story.
Just like he's continuing to write mine,

Everyday.

Never leave the one you love

for the one you like, ever.

"You have officially lost all respect & gratitude from me. You've hurt a woman who I admire, who I respect, who I deeply appreciate. And you fucked it up. With some lowlife bitch that will soon know you're complete story, she'll come to her senses and see what she got herself into and leave you as well. And you've lost everything. Though I may not know everything that happened between you two. I see it in her eyes how she's given up, how hurt she is and how much you've put her through. You pathetic use of a man. You've lost everything you looked forward to, a family, a future and a life. I can't believe you tried to replace, but really you downgraded. You had everything, but you gave it up for someone else, one who can never give you what she gave. But its okaay. You will struggle and definitely, YOU WILL REAP WHAT YOU SOW. You fuck up. Its okay, I know she's gona soon close the door from your pathetic world and open a new one to a paradise she's never seen before. She's got an entire renovation of life to look forward to, you don't. And I hope you realize how much regret you will live with for the rest of your life. This is the life you lived you're entire youth for ? You grew up and wished for a life like this ? Well. It must be one twisted ass life."

Dog on the go.

Okay so we on our way to vallejo right. Just passed dixon and there's hellllaaaaa fuckin traffic. But ! I seen the cutest puppies in the back of someone's truck. I gota new iphone, debatin on a new car, and now. I WANA PUPPY ! My kuya's dog mochi had puppies, but they're keepin both of em :( too bad our roomate prolly won't like the idea of havina dog, but shit. As soon as baby and I move out, thas the first thing im gettin. Whenever im off I always check craigslist to see what kinda doggys they got on there. They be cute man ! Im jealous. Me vahnnnt doggy.

COMMITMENT:
So now, I've come to my senses and have made a personal commitment to takin at least ONE picture everyday of what i'm doin, a nice view or of somethin funny or entertaining. I have a 2G and a 4G memory card. Thas like 15,000+ potentially good picture space.

I shall, I will.

One sweet day.

So today, I went to work. Did normal customer service associate type thangs and realized, "I WANT SOMETHIN NEW" so when I approached my store manager and told her how my raise didn't get added to my paycheck, I calculated how much they owe me and its about $50-60. Thas like a new jacket or some shoes, maybe even my herro kitty drivin wheel cover I've been wanting. But I better get my damn money that I worked for. Cheapass bitches. And I get my bonus soon ? :DDDD Ahhhh shiet. Im lookin for a shoppin spree, maybe even a weekend vacation somewhere. Im bouta get my car paperwork done and get it over wid. And prolly buy a new lappytop or somethin (: maybe even take my mom shoppin, dependin on my mood. We'll see.

FML, schoo starts in like two weeks and its like I do wana go, but I don't. But knowin me, I'll prolly end up goin. All summer I've been all about gettin this gouda so I needa re-evaluate my priorities. Which is, SCHOOL.

I can't wait til the holidays cus thas when alla the hours start rollin in. Hella exciting. I remember last year I was comin home wid $500-600 paychecks just bein an associate so im expectin the same for this year as weeell (: Im so moneyhungry, im kinda ponderin the thought of a second job just cus. Two jobs and school ? DZAAAAMMMMN, I'd be the ultimate MIA. But alla this shit is gona be worth it. I know it.

I stay dedicated to what I want.

And all I want is to succeed more than my parents ever imagined. Even tho none of then take part in my life like before anymore, im still triena make them proud so that when they're old and im takin care of em, they can say straight to my face, "Thank you" and appreciate what I did for them for once. I've had no parental supervision and I've never gotten locked up, im not no run around rippa, I don't got no babys runnin around, I grew up ina neighborhood fulla crackheads, drug addicts & pedophiles and I don't do drugs, don't smoke, and barely ever drink-Maybe like once a month if anything, and its mostly when im wid my girls. I NEVER GET DRUNK AT SOME RANDOM FUNCTION. All that, I controlled on my own. My parents ? They should be prouda me. Its sad cus my grandparents ALWAYS tell me how their prouda me. I love my grandparents. They're the best grandparents inda world. But the thing that hurts is that my parents don't even take time outta their day to care. Its all G though, im doin me and im all grown up now. After alla that, I still thank them for raisin a classy ass lady such as myself. Im just hopin one day they'll truly be prouda me. One day.

PS- I LOVE READIN BLOGS/TUMBLRS. SEND ME YOUR LINK !!!!!!!! OR IF YOU KNOW AND I'VE TOLD YOU I READ YOUR BLOGS, QUIT MAKIN YOUR SHIT BORING AND UPDATE IT WID SOMETHIN EXCITING FOR ONCE YOU FUCKS ! Thank you.

Bake fun.

They're cupcakes !

Josephine we are makin these during our next bakin session. OUR IDEA ! We'll make a "burger cake" for alla our co-workers so we wont havta make another coworker jealous ever again. And then we shall make rocky road brownies. And THEN, we'll make a layered cake and see how many layers we can get to before gettin bored from baking. Ooooooooooohw, i'm so excited !!!!!