4am.... seriously ?! haha. i aint gon lie, it's been this way for like a week now. how terrible ! sleeping in is becomin a habit for me. but gahh it's got to stop some time soon.

well anyways, helloooo sac city college. it's official man. and oh my gorgeous, i've been waiting to go back to schoo since fuhever !okaay, it was just one semester. but zaaym, it feels good to go back. it felt wierd to take a semester off knowing i took schoo serious senior year and for that long period of time i got used to it. it felt unreal to NOT be in schoo. hearin everyone talk about their classes and homework, finals and such. and all i had to talk about in return was how busy it was at work that day. hahah no more, "i cant go to schoo, i gota do this, i gota help my family, blah blah blah" cus for the past couple years, it's always been about them and me helping to support them or my mom and get barely any support back. i've learned so much stuff the hard way. but inda end, good or bad it's always worth the trouble. PERIOD. EXCLAMATION POINT.

so i signed up for my classes and then looked at the tuition fee it was gona be for the classes i'm taking, and foreal i'm takin three 3unit classes and one 5unit class. not bad considering the fact that i'm still gona be working fulltime. maybe. idk. i havent quite figured that out on how that'd work or else i'd find myself doing homework AT work. which i really aint stressin off that. issall good tho ! tuitions paid for. cus i fuckin love those easy peasy financial aid websites man. they do some magic ! im just glad to say, despite everything else i'm stressin off of, it feels good to have that satisfaction of havin some part of my life made a lil bit easier. omg tho, i want my own caaar. i want, want, want.

i miss this guy ...





kuya told me he's gettin outta bed now without anyone knowin in the morning, to go to the living room in which ! he turns on the tv on his own to watch cartoons. its tough knowin my whole entire family is falllllin apart. which is the worst feeling in the whole entire world cus my family doesnt really consist of a whole lot of people since i have relatives that live hella far away and shit. but when it comes to family problems like that, all you can do is pray yehnnoe ? hella corny, but iss serious. i dont think i'll ever have my whole family back together the way it was, ever.

new years eve. and i have work .... -_- what else is new. its sad. but whatevs. i have so much on my mind, but i really just cant find the words to let it all out. just one word always pops into my mind tho; APPRECIATION. goodnight lovaahs.

daaaamn tho, foreal !? it's 447am. as of RIGHT now. i'm sleepy as hell but i'm triena vent out whas been on my mind and whas been keepin me solid. for instance...
hahaha, and also my boyfriend. dont forget that. even tho our arguements are like fuckin hurricanes, we still get through that stormy weather. [damn that sounded hella corny] but anyways ! today was the secret santa distribution at work. tell me why, my work hours today was 4pm-1am. BOSS !? today was coo tho. as well as the potluck as well as the little afterhours christmas party. hahah. hella crackin wid my coworkers. yesterday, work at 7am, got off at noon, went to brian's bro's college grad. mizuuuuu <3 class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_16">thennnn fairfield to reunite wid highschool loves. zaaayyyuumm, the best busy day i've had ina while. it felt like i did hella shit in that ONE day. and it not only that, it went by hella fast. preview ?


imagine if _____. that game is hella fun. even tho the answers weren't even true, most of us picked em just cus they were hella funny. the best. and i sweahhh it felt like it was the highschoo days all over again. i hella misses. it still hasnt hit me yet that all of us aren't ever gona get that "first day back to schoo" feeling. yehnnoe... when we'd try to party that weekend before schoo started and then end up havina go to the first day back to highschoo hella tired and exhausted, still thinkin it was summer. hahaha. i aint gon lie, i HELLA miss those days. hahah. but iss coo. -the growin up- process is still in tact. whaaaaas good. hahah. okaay, babys sleeping now. therefore, i must get my happy ass to bed also.

okaay i know it's been hella long since i last did this biznatch. but i'm here now only cus i'm finally giving in time to tell some random ass people some shit about MY life. hahahahaha. so anyways. no lies tem, if you're reading this. them santa clara girls be on hittttt. i'm still stuck on their videos. aye check out that lydia paek video tho on my facebook k :) hahaha. anyways.

work is sucha drag. but im finally happy cus after alla the hardwork i put into that job. i finally got recognized for my dedication. nov08 employee of the month. HELLA happy. i didnt even want no raise. i just wanted people to realize how much dedication i put at work. and it finally paid off. i got my coworkers askin my why i'm so good at what i do. and i just tell em, "it's my job" hahaha. corny and gay right ? anyways. christmas is almost here. no christmas tree ? :( familys not like we used to be anymore. cus alla the shit thas been happenin lately. i actually like BEIN at work cus then i wouldnt be at home. i've come to realize my coworkers are becomin family cus i see them so much rather than my own family.

idk. it's hard to explain. but ANYWAYS ! life is good. god is good. my appetite is good. haha ! i'm hella hungry. i start school soon. I'm so happpyyyyyyy. cus gahd you have no idea how hard it was for me to NOT go to schoo for like what 3-4 months. i wana go back to schoo, as crazy as that may sound. i never thought i wouldnt be in school. but IM BACKKKKKK baby. future psychologist. future motivational speaker. future counselor. WHICHEVER YOU PREFER.

MIA MIA MIA MIA. that might as well be my fuckin middle name. hahaha. shit. people try speakin about why i live in sac and how boring it is. pshhh, i'd rather be out here gettin my priorities straight rather than bein inda bay partyin everyweekend and constantly havin to go random places for no reason. i'd rather be makin my money ! work hard, play harder [when i get the chance to] hahaha. anyways, this is done. i dont really have much to say. but, I LOVE BRIAN SMITH. even tho you're wierd and tone death. and you're a video game nerd. you's still my baby. hahahahahah. MUAH !